Monday, January 14, 2013

Counting to 1000

976.  God's protection
977.  My children's prayers over me, for my hurting heart and hurting head...healing.
978.  A daughter to drive us around
979.  Christmas break
980.  Sister in Laws who cross town and drive to hospitals
981.  Tylenol
982.  Kids who accept the inconvenience of life and know we will get there eventually
983.  Tears, the help the soul
984.  Christmas morning at home
985.  Contentment
986.  Good memories
987.  Cousin time in KC
988.  Flipping and jumping and giggling on hotel beds. (a No-No, but the memory still brings a smile)
989.  Dinner out and Hockey Player finishing off all the leftovers...will this boy ever fill his hollow leg?
990.  Clear roads and skies
991.  Forgiveness and acceptness
992.  Hugs and more hugs
993.  Hand holding and eyes that search
994.  Crazy expressions and laughing with my parents
995.  Memories of hiking mountains
996.  Sleeping in
997.  Friends who bring meals just because
998.  Friends who call and text because they know tis hard right now
999.  Immune systems kicking in and kids are recovering
1000.  18 years of marriage. 

Counting to 975.....

951.  Watching the Cosby show with mom and kids
952.  Routine of bible reading
953.  The opportunity to love by reading aloud
954.  Dollar day and a movie with my mom to calm her nerves
955.  Prayers being said and being answered
956.  Walks with grandson and grandma
957.  Naps for the weary
958.  Intuitive Princesses
959.  Curls
960.  Moments of thanks, deep rooted gratefulness and love not ever seen before
961.   Calling Little Princess by name
962.  Dad's Bud growing up in the kitchen and making Jello alone
963.  Uncomplaining helper in the home
964.  Husband who comes and sits with me in the quiet of the night as I cry and share my heart
965.  Pile of blankets finished and ready to be used
966.  The curiousity of my children as I sew...how little I do it these days.
967.  Bills paid...and the funds to pay them
968.  Lasagnas in the freezer
969.  Day of cookie making and laundry achieved !
970.  Stocking stuffers paid with register rewards and Walgreens points
971.  Another Christmas order paid for with swagbucks.
972.  God's creativity in stretching our Christmas budget.
973.  Packages secretly appearing under the tree
974.  Cold dog noses
975.  God provides in just the perfect measure for each day

An update...

It is late...
My mind is a whirling.
Fun Girl, "don't want to be a pest...but you haven't updated your blog in a while."
Me, "I don't know what to write.  Life is tough right now.  I cry a lot"
I just viewed my last post posted.
It was the afternoon before the car accident.
Life was great that day.  Blogging and computer stuff done.  Kiddo at a Christmas party, looking to what all needed to be done for the holidays.  On our way to work Bingo to pay for Hockey Player's hockey and life came to a halting stop at the red light. 

We were stopped.  The kid admitted to being distracted.  He stopped only after crashing into us.  Things could have been so much worse.  That they weren't I am grateful.  I was stunned, dazed and, well, just going with the flow.  I didn't feel right but stayed quiet.  We went on to Bingo.  My leg went numb, got heavy and eventually I sat down and helped with paper work.  The next morning, I was dizzy and weak... Eventually I was in the ER.  A concussion. 

A week later in the ER again.  Post-concussive syndrome. 

It is not good to sit in the car sideways.  I was sitting at an angle so I could face Hubby while he drove and we talked.  Instead of a front to back concussion, I was hit from the side.  Bummer.  Brain doesn't like that too much.  I slept a lot for the 2 weeks after the accident.  There is a lot I don't remember from about Thanksgiving till now.  Pictures help.  Talking helps.  Sometimes looking at the calendar.  But for the most part, the memories are mostly gone.  But I know my kiddos have been gems.  They have loved on me and taken care of me. 

A week after the accident, the call came.  Granny was gone.  There was to be no services or viewing.  She was gone.  I slept a lot.  The kids and I still have yet to fully process she is gone.  It is just a big silence in our life.  None of us really know how to talk about it. 

In the meantime, my mom is declining in leaps.  Agitated and confused.  She doesn't always recognize us, or she does and doesn't know why we are familiar. The year ends and a new one begins.  We find ourselves saying good-bye and grieving.  Mom will be moving soon.  She wanders now and doesn't know us a good amount of the time.  They will move to Colorado, there are more siblings/kids there to help out and support.  More than just me.  Colorado is home to my parents.  Where they want to be.  I know with this move, we are saying good-bye.  Visits will be farther and fewer.  Her memories of us will slip faster with our absence.

And I sleep a lot.  I have aggravated my concussion a couple of times.  I can't be silly and shake my head at the kids.  It hurts.  Accupuncture helps a lot with the pain.  But it is not long lasting.  More follow up with the doctors to happen.  Hoping for the doctor okay to travel to Colorado with my mom.  There is a concern about the change in altitude and pressure on my brain.  I have an extra motivation in going...I want to see my preggy niece.  My first grand-neice on my side of the family.  I love being an auntie and look forward to changing my title to GREAT Aunt!  She is due soon.  I can't remember the due date.  If it wouldn't be too soon, it would be cool if she popped out to see me while in Colorado.  Wouldn't that be lovely....snuggles with a super sweet wee new born.  Ahhh!
I keep telling Hubby I need a baby girl of my own.  The kids think my concussion is even worse than the doctors have said.

School planning needs to be done.  Hoping between naps and appointments this week, I will accomplish this one GREAT BIG task.